Youngest kid of six with an inferiority and black sheep complex, but determined that God saves not just his soul to heaven but the remainder of his manic-depressive life, so others won't say he became a Christian and remained a jerk.
i won't be transparent before i'm opaque. and you'll get to know me starting from the small things: who my favourite bands are. what kind of movies i like. who are my heroes.
I’m convinced that when confronted with sincere, real love, the Jesus factor will become obvious. But let’s not plant the cross before we carry it. I’m not trying to con you.
Some dreams are meant to be achieved. I know that. But maybe other dreams are meant to drive us, privately. Never known to anyone but ourselves.
It is a sadness that, when choosing between crying and sighing, will choose sighing. I'd almost say that melancholy is being sad about sadness itself.
On memory and nostalgia
It saddens me when life moves forward and people decide that certain things are worth forgetting.
I've learnt that the word irregardless is filed as a non-standard word in the English language. That's a lexicographer's way of saying it's not a real word.
Crowds are fickle things. So when we stand in the thousands and cry against the present government, do we know who we're actually crying for?
People always want the best for themselves. But I want to sometimes take second or third or fourth best, just so that the loser down the road doesn't always have to come in last. It must feel like shit to always come in last.
On growing old
Leasehold property make me feel sad. It doesn't matter how old the family photos are that you put on your wall. It's your family but it's not really your wall.
I ask you, if God loves everyone, and if God is also incapable of loving evil, how can there be such a thing as an evil man?
On a daily basis
One line quips, like this.
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
THE LICENSE TO BE NOT OK
I wanna be the kind of person who can be honest and upfront say "hi guys. i'm not okay". people need that room. you know, to sometimes not be okay. in fact, people need the room to sometimes flat out be tremendously not okay and be able to push that un-okness to the absolute length of it. it's healthy.
right now, for instance. i want to be able to tell the people around me, "i'm gonna sit in a corner now and answer all questions monosyllabically. but if you wanna meet me on a nice day, tommorrow should be a good bet". it can only be healthy. the next best thing is to shut up. the worst thing for someone in my shoes now to do is to actually wear a black face and say "no, i'm fine".
sure, we all have that intrinsic need to keep face, show face, be nice and abstain from general bastardism. well, this is my new interpretation of this intrinsic need then. i shall, from now onwards, exercise this basic human trait by telling it like it is.
Labels: dialogue, identity
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