Youngest kid of six with an inferiority and black sheep complex, but determined that God saves not just his soul to heaven but the remainder of his manic-depressive life, so others won't say he became a Christian and remained a jerk.
i won't be transparent before i'm opaque. and you'll get to know me starting from the small things: who my favourite bands are. what kind of movies i like. who are my heroes.
I’m convinced that when confronted with sincere, real love, the Jesus factor will become obvious. But let’s not plant the cross before we carry it. I’m not trying to con you.
Some dreams are meant to be achieved. I know that. But maybe other dreams are meant to drive us, privately. Never known to anyone but ourselves.
It is a sadness that, when choosing between crying and sighing, will choose sighing. I'd almost say that melancholy is being sad about sadness itself.
On memory and nostalgia
It saddens me when life moves forward and people decide that certain things are worth forgetting.
I've learnt that the word irregardless is filed as a non-standard word in the English language. That's a lexicographer's way of saying it's not a real word.
Crowds are fickle things. So when we stand in the thousands and cry against the present government, do we know who we're actually crying for?
People always want the best for themselves. But I want to sometimes take second or third or fourth best, just so that the loser down the road doesn't always have to come in last. It must feel like shit to always come in last.
On growing old
Leasehold property make me feel sad. It doesn't matter how old the family photos are that you put on your wall. It's your family but it's not really your wall.
I ask you, if God loves everyone, and if God is also incapable of loving evil, how can there be such a thing as an evil man?
On a daily basis
One line quips, like this.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
IN SEARCH OF VERSE ON POVERTY
Ever been frustrated because you're wanting to pull up a bible verse but can't find it? i'm thinking of one right now. what's worse is that it's one of the verses that i told myself i'd live by. one of those about the poor and the rich, about us needing to let go before we can receive or something like that. something in the vein of how the last shall be first, but it's not that one. it's definitely from the gospels and it's very likely to be from the synoptics. but i just can't get it.
and biblegateway isn't even useful right now because i can't even remember any of the key words now to even hazard a search. i tried poor, rich, poverty and least. none of them did it. all i got with me is the memory of saying it to vernon some time ago as he was dropping me off at home and we were talking about a church in singapore. and when i used that verse that night, it came to mind so naturally. now, it's just not there.
it's frustrating me to the extent that i'm almost persuaded that the Almighty Himself is behind this little cat and no mouse game. maybe i'm supposed to stop chasing after that verse.
maybe i'm supposed to start living it first.
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