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Youngest kid of six with an inferiority and black sheep complex, but determined that God saves not just his soul to heaven but the remainder of his manic-depressive life, so others won't say he became a Christian and remained a jerk.


MAIN THEMES

On identity
i won't be transparent before i'm opaque. and you'll get to know me starting from the small things: who my favourite bands are. what kind of movies i like. who are my heroes.

On Christianity
I’m convinced that when confronted with sincere, real love, the Jesus factor will become obvious. But let’s not plant the cross before we carry it. I’m not trying to con you.

On dreams
Some dreams are meant to be achieved. I know that. But maybe other dreams are meant to drive us, privately. Never known to anyone but ourselves.


OTHER THEMES

On melancholy
It is a sadness that, when choosing between crying and sighing, will choose sighing. I'd almost say that melancholy is being sad about sadness itself.

On memory and nostalgia
It saddens me when life moves forward and people decide that certain things are worth forgetting.

On language
I've learnt that the word irregardless is filed as a non-standard word in the English language. That's a lexicographer's way of saying it's not a real word.

On politics
Crowds are fickle things. So when we stand in the thousands and cry against the present government, do we know who we're actually crying for?

On society
People always want the best for themselves. But I want to sometimes take second or third or fourth best, just so that the loser down the road doesn't always have to come in last. It must feel like shit to always come in last.

On growing old
Leasehold property make me feel sad. It doesn't matter how old the family photos are that you put on your wall. It's your family but it's not really your wall.

On philosophy
I ask you, if God loves everyone, and if God is also incapable of loving evil, how can there be such a thing as an evil man?

On a daily basis
One line quips, like this.


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Wednesday, July 28, 2004
GETTING MARRIED

As i bundled myself out of my car, i kinda thought to myself, "ah. cell life. this is just like that week". Boy was i in for a shock!

Tonight, two of the couples in my cell announced their engagements. In fact, both the guys in the respective couples proposed to their girlfriends last night. As you can see, it wasn't quite like any other week!

It was great. i feel so blessed to have the chance to be there even... William & Sharon, Daniel & Grace, these guys are super blessed to have each other. You know, when i was sitting there listening to all my cell members' stories, i really felt the joy of God there in that room. Like He was so pleased to watch and listen to all the stories. Who - having planned all the intricacies of the relationship, presided over every season of each of their four lives and watching them come around like this - wouldn't?

Being a very small cell, I did also feel the obviousness of my singleness, i won't gloss over that. Later, Fuyee my cell leader spoke to me and he told me to value my season of singleness and really enjoy it. I know God has made the one as He has made the other, and when my time comes (if God wills it) then i will call on that day's joy. As for today, i feel the joy of seeing them all. And as for me - being obedient to God and serving Him wholeheartedly is my task for the season, and i will do it with joy. Fuyee went through that before he was blessed with Angee and so did these two brave dudes... who proposed last night having planned this simultaneous coup! ;)

I've been shocked. But there are only so few of us to shock each other. So my cell meetings are not gonna top this anymore. Next week, as i bundle myself out of my car, i can safely say, "ah, cell life. this is just like that week..."

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