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Youngest kid of six with an inferiority and black sheep complex, but determined that God saves not just his soul to heaven but the remainder of his manic-depressive life, so others won't say he became a Christian and remained a jerk.


MAIN THEMES

On identity
i won't be transparent before i'm opaque. and you'll get to know me starting from the small things: who my favourite bands are. what kind of movies i like. who are my heroes.

On Christianity
I’m convinced that when confronted with sincere, real love, the Jesus factor will become obvious. But let’s not plant the cross before we carry it. I’m not trying to con you.

On dreams
Some dreams are meant to be achieved. I know that. But maybe other dreams are meant to drive us, privately. Never known to anyone but ourselves.


OTHER THEMES

On melancholy
It is a sadness that, when choosing between crying and sighing, will choose sighing. I'd almost say that melancholy is being sad about sadness itself.

On memory and nostalgia
It saddens me when life moves forward and people decide that certain things are worth forgetting.

On language
I've learnt that the word irregardless is filed as a non-standard word in the English language. That's a lexicographer's way of saying it's not a real word.

On politics
Crowds are fickle things. So when we stand in the thousands and cry against the present government, do we know who we're actually crying for?

On society
People always want the best for themselves. But I want to sometimes take second or third or fourth best, just so that the loser down the road doesn't always have to come in last. It must feel like shit to always come in last.

On growing old
Leasehold property make me feel sad. It doesn't matter how old the family photos are that you put on your wall. It's your family but it's not really your wall.

On philosophy
I ask you, if God loves everyone, and if God is also incapable of loving evil, how can there be such a thing as an evil man?

On a daily basis
One line quips, like this.


CHAT





Saturday, February 05, 2005
I LOVE CHINESE NEW YEAR BACK IN MUAR

This is amazing. i'm back in muar ready to take on chinese new year with full aplomb!
i got my new clothes, my fedora, a funky topman tie (which, however, doesn't go with the shirts and the fedora, and therefore may get the drop), and the best of all - i'm back here to chill and chill and then cny!

i always wonder what it must be like for those living in kl during chinese new year. they clean up, buy new stuff - like everyone else - and then, the celebrate right where they are. which is fair enough, i guess, if it's never been any other way. maybe i can get a better idea if i remember how i approached cny all my life right up till form 5.

but even then, there was always the thrill of going to kl to shop for the clothes and new stuff (house decorations and whatnot, though to be honest, none of that ever fascinated me) and then coming back to small town muar and celebrating.

i guess i just like coming home. i always think that peoples' kampungs are very sacred to them and it is fair. i love muar. say what you want about the congested streets, the colour-coded buildings (jan!) and the new and not-necesarilly improved tanjung, i love muar from the bowels of my heart.

and i'm so glad to be back.

for nine days too. it's gonna be so much fun - there'll be lots of mahjong sessions, cards, board games, angpau, shandy, orange crush, cny songs, red table cloths, fireworks, bright lights, jam tarts, seven up and visitors.

for some time, i kinda lost the mood for cny. i thought that it was gonna be harrowing, with nosy relatives asking silly questions like "when are you getting married" (to which i will answer July 2011, citing that a stupid question deserves a stupider answer), or business-types asking business type questions... (whatever that means... oh, i know. they could ask me if the company i work for trades on the main board!). la di da di.

i'm excited man! what's this? i am excited! i can't wait to start cleaning the last few things mummy left for us to deal with, change bulbs (though elaine always gets to do those) and... man! i love chinese new year! and now that i'm back, all i can say is BRING IT ON!!!

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