Youngest kid of six with an inferiority and black sheep complex, but determined that God saves not just his soul to heaven but the remainder of his manic-depressive life, so others won't say he became a Christian and remained a jerk.
i won't be transparent before i'm opaque. and you'll get to know me starting from the small things: who my favourite bands are. what kind of movies i like. who are my heroes.
I’m convinced that when confronted with sincere, real love, the Jesus factor will become obvious. But let’s not plant the cross before we carry it. I’m not trying to con you.
Some dreams are meant to be achieved. I know that. But maybe other dreams are meant to drive us, privately. Never known to anyone but ourselves.
It is a sadness that, when choosing between crying and sighing, will choose sighing. I'd almost say that melancholy is being sad about sadness itself.
On memory and nostalgia
It saddens me when life moves forward and people decide that certain things are worth forgetting.
I've learnt that the word irregardless is filed as a non-standard word in the English language. That's a lexicographer's way of saying it's not a real word.
Crowds are fickle things. So when we stand in the thousands and cry against the present government, do we know who we're actually crying for?
People always want the best for themselves. But I want to sometimes take second or third or fourth best, just so that the loser down the road doesn't always have to come in last. It must feel like shit to always come in last.
On growing old
Leasehold property make me feel sad. It doesn't matter how old the family photos are that you put on your wall. It's your family but it's not really your wall.
I ask you, if God loves everyone, and if God is also incapable of loving evil, how can there be such a thing as an evil man?
On a daily basis
One line quips, like this.
Friday, February 18, 2005
HOUSEKEEPING WHILE AWAITING COPY
Warning: Self-reflexive blog
Budget night. nothing to do from 9pm till midnight. i've been getting pictures for my bulletin board and resizing them in anticipation of the weeks ahead. with little on my mind worth talking, let's do a little housekeeping. hmmm... housekeeping!
... finding time to blog will always be a challenge, and i'd like to be more initiated and post better and more intelligent stuff. ok, what's happening in here? i've been fooling around with the bulletin board a lot of late, cos it's easier and faster to put things up there than on the main post. movie of the day has been going well. it's my favourite segment now, so i'm quite proud of it. i'd only just added album of the hour and book of the moment and that's been quite fun as well. bear in mind, these of the days are never really updated daily. they just sound that way, because generically, that's how they're called.
and now, i've just gone overboard with it (like how i went overboard the other time with musing of the day and act of the day, hahaa!). you can clearly see, there are new segments, i wanna check this out! and painting of the day. to upkeep these two, as well as the rest, i'll need to spend free time like this preparing a whole bunch of pictures to be uploaded at busier times.
word of the day remains one of my favourite things in this blog. so it still comes on first on the bullettin board. i've made it a personal conviction to keep God's word high up as well. and... since the bullettin board has grown so long, i've moved the links over to the left column. sigh... who the heaven cares?
i hate to scroll left and right. it's one of the banes of my cyberlife. and it has of course, come to my great horror to find that for everyone not using monitors set to 1280x1024 resolution, you'll have to scroll left and right. what a crime! no. this musn't go on. ideally, i want this place set to 1024x768 but it does this by itself and i don't yet know how to correct this. apparently there are people who don't read the bulletin board because of the need to scroll right. i better fix this quick. doctor joel, are you there?
jan said it was wrong for me to say IDEA next to EVENT in my blog on cny. she said they weren't "ideas" but "lessons learnt". i guess that's true, but saying "lesson learnt" sounds kinda cheesy and pretentious. like i had to learn something from everything. i told her "i said idea because i want this blog to be ideas based, not event based", and she said "i know". like, ok. so IDEA wasn't exactly accurate.
nor was the term "identical" in my last blog, which confused stacey and i'm sure everyone. i guess what i meant was... the event will talk about practical things and things to do with identity. and being one to push the limits of the english language to its nether- and outer-most regions, i had to be an idiot and invent the adjective form of the word identity, which inevitably, was going to be identical. haha, fergus. haha.
Ok. it's 12.55am and copy has just come in from our singapore editors. just took a look at the first para and there's already a sentence that needs subediting. cheers, and i hope for a good night.
4 hours later:
partially zonked from work, partially hyper from caffeine poisoning. now, it's back with the singaporeans.
these late nights, while unconventional, are somewhat exciting.
two weeks time, bring on hong kong!
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